A New Schnikism (Poetry Series) Expressionless

What do you say to taking a chance? What do you say to growing up? What do you say to loving again? What do you say to being alone? What do you say to finding a home? What do you say to give up on love? What do you say when your heart is broken?…

A New Schnikism: Shattered (Poetry Series

I don’t understand, Why this path we had to take? Why my world had to blow up? Why every day my tears fall down? I keep looking out the window. Thinking it’s your face I keep seeing. Praying you were still mine. I’ve looked to the heavens. I’ve looked down below. I’ve seen the end…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) The Perfect Li(f)e

This is my story,  which is quite normal.  At the midpoint of my life, I had it all. A beautiful man,  A ring upon my finger,  A lovely home,  A great job,  an epic collection of friends…  From the outside,  it was a perfect life. From the inside,  It was the perfect lie,  Inside I…

Today’s Jam: Wrecked

Yes. I still see your face. Yes, I still hear your voice. Yes, I still wish I could see your smile. Yes, I still look for you around every corner. Somedays, I wonder if it was all a dream in my mind. Somedays, I wonder if you were ever really mine. Somedays, no matter how…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Forever Questioning

Why:            Is my life on display,            does it continue,            to my dismay? What:            Is this story,            of the games,            you continue to play? How:: Do I grow,            not because you say,            and not because I pray? When:            Will it be over,            this hurt that I…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) A Final Bow?

Once again, it’s late. Once again, I’ve been crying. Once again, I cannot breathe. The steady rhythm of hyperventilation. Once again, all I see is your taillights. Once again, your back is turned to me. Once again, all those voices are screaming in my head. Once again, they remind me of the very worst. A…

Today’s Jam: Boys in the Street

Somehow I missed this song on National Coming Out Day. This is one of my favorite artists. His voice is amazing and this song burrows deep into my soul right now. Recently, I realized I’m now considered an “elder” in the gay community. I guess with time, comes wisdom, love, and strength. Whether you’re seeking…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Show Me How We Burn

The drive in my life, Has always been predicated, Has always been propelled by, One single motivational premise: Love is always the right answer For love,  the fight is always worth it, When love lights the fire, When love lights the way, The fire within you will continue to burn. Whether you add more logs…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Regrettable

I am sorry for all I have done. I am sorry for each moment. I hope for a chance.  So that I may atone. I seek to forever understand. To be a more perfect person. Every day, working with a purpose. Every day,  Working on my life. Every day, Charting my course. To take the…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Wistful Wondering

There was once a time, In the story of my life,  that all I ever wanted deserved, desired, begged for, was to feel, was to become  the strongest monument of your love, to know  without question, to feel, without a single moment’s pause the power, and the safety, that comes from an open soul, that…