A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) For Peace and Hope

This used to be the only way I could communicate, To tell the truth from the lies, To understand what was real and what was not, Every word spoken out loud seems empty and lost, The ability to decipher the reality from fantasy, Those friends around me, are they really foes? Why does it seem…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Maybe

Maybe I don’t know,            What this is all about? Maybe I don’t know,            How to get by without? Maybe I don’t know,            My real path or route? Maybe I don’t know,            Because all I do is roam? Maybe I don’t know,            Which way to move? Maybe I don’t know,           …

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Home

When you’re faced with a moment, After the longest of roads, When you wouldn’t know who you are, When the pressure is at its worst, When life has kicked you, In the chest, in the head, So many times, All you wished for was the end, You are in need of that very moment, To…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Submission

I do not think you know, The way this should go. You pushed me to the line, I tripped or fell each and every time. I showed you what you failed to see, The central parts of me. Never knowing when to start, I showed you how I’d stop, All your lies. All your games….

A New Schnikism (Poetry Series) Expressionless

What do you say to taking a chance? What do you say to growing up? What do you say to loving again? What do you say to being alone? What do you say to finding a home? What do you say to give up on love? What do you say when your heart is broken?…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) The Perfect Li(f)e

This is my story,  which is quite normal.  At the midpoint of my life, I had it all. A beautiful man,  A ring upon my finger,  A lovely home,  A great job,  an epic collection of friends…  From the outside,  it was a perfect life. From the inside,  It was the perfect lie,  Inside I…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) Forever Questioning

Why:            Is my life on display,            does it continue,            to my dismay? What:            Is this story,            of the games,            you continue to play? How:: Do I grow,            not because you say,            and not because I pray? When:            Will it be over,            this hurt that I…

A New Schnikism: (Poetry Series) A Final Bow?

Once again, it’s late. Once again, I’ve been crying. Once again, I cannot breathe. The steady rhythm of hyperventilation. Once again, all I see is your taillights. Once again, your back is turned to me. Once again, all those voices are screaming in my head. Once again, they remind me of the very worst. A…

Today’s Jam: Boys in the Street

Somehow I missed this song on National Coming Out Day. This is one of my favorite artists. His voice is amazing and this song burrows deep into my soul right now. Recently, I realized I’m now considered an “elder” in the gay community. I guess with time, comes wisdom, love, and strength. Whether you’re seeking…

Today’s Jam: You Will Be Found

As some of you know, I’m semi-obsessed with this song as of late. Let this serve as a reminder for you, too, that if you are feeling lost…. For whatever reason. I’m here for you.